Don't Mind Me, I Just Cry in Public

Pregnancy is full of hormones. Good hormones, bad hormones, and everything in between. But mostly ones that just make you look or act like an idiot and/or grouch. That's a nice way of putting it. These hormones make you cry over dumb things and get enraged over other dumb things. Overall, its just not normal behavior. Well, mostly. Cause sometimes I cry at dumb stuff when I'm not pregnant.

It is important to have a good OB when you are pregnant. Someone you trust bringing your kid into the world. That's why when I found a doctor that I liked with my first pregnancy I kept going with my other pregnancies. I liked him. He was nice, calm, induced me the day after my due date in my August pregnancy, you know, all the things I look for in a doctor. I was a return customer.

Last week I got a call from my doctor's office wanting to reschedule my appointment. The previous one couldn't be kept. Because the doctor had a heart attack in his sleep the previous Saturday and had passed away. That was a lot to process, so I just agreed to see the other doctor and got off the phone. I really didn't know what to think. Hormones were coming at me from different directions, all surrounding this one issue. I called David to tell him and was surprised at how emotional I got. I couldn't even talk. After that day I was still sad but busy enough to remain distracted.

Then I actually had to go back to the doctor's office. To switch doctors a little more than halfway through my pregnancy. I was fine for awhile. Got through the actual appointment, and the other doctor is also really nice so I think I'll live. But then when the really nice nurse practitioner came up and hugged me I got all weepy crazy crying pregnant lady again when I tried to bring it up. Then the nurses had to give me tissues while I stood there trying to make an appointment crying over someone who I only knew because he delivered my babies. And 14,000 other babies in the last 40 years. And every time I thought about it the rest of the day I got all sad and weepy. Crying in the doctor's office. And the elevator. And my car. All in public.

All this stupid crying over stuff comes with pregnancy. But that doesn't mean you get used to it with subsequent pregnancies. You still get surprised that you are standing in public crying over something, no matter how many times it happens.