We have cable, and included with our service is On Demand TV.
This means we can watch a selection of TV shows and movies from HBO whenever we want. Doesn't matter too much to me though, since we have DVR too. We pretty much have it all when it comes to our TV.
Included with On Demand service is one useful tool though. Exercise TV. Its like having 100 fitness DVDs at our fingertips. Whatever you feel like doing, they have. You can do 10, 20 or 30 minute sessions. You can do yoga, pilates, cardio or dance. You can tone your butt with Kim Kardashian if that's what floats your boat. Or learn the Thriller dance with some amateur Micheal Jackson wanna-bes.
Now I'm not the biggest fan of exercise. I actually hate it. But I also hate the 5 extra pounds I have. I've always been the skinny girl, and if I were to cross over into some other category I don't know what I'd do. Five pounds doesn't seem like a lot at first, but that's how it starts. I would rather control my size while I'm still at a healthy body weight and BMI than have to do extra diet and exercise in the future if I let it get out of control.
I know when I wean Ava I will lose a couple of pounds in the boobs, which will help. I miss my little A cups. And breastfeeding makes you so hungry. I have to eat every few hours or my stomach is growling. And if I were to try and diet and limit my calorie intake, it would affect my milk supply. I have to eat at least 2,000 calories a day or I starve my baby. As Ava eats more solid foods she needs me less, and as soon at she hits one I'm cutting her off. I'm reclaiming my boobs.
The whole eating 2,000 calories a day isn't really an issue for me. For the most part I eat really healthy. I barely ever eat red meat, I always eat whole wheat, I don't drink soda, I make sure to eat plenty of fruits and vegetables. But I have a seemingly incurable condition. A massive sweet tooth, paired with almost complete lack of willpower. If I make a batch of cookies, I will eat most of them. If we have ice cream, I will eat it everyday.
This sweet tooth has been with me as long as I can remember. As a kid, I would eat frozen cool whip because it was the closest thing we had to ice cream. I would suck the chocolate off of Raisinettes, because I didn't like the raisin but I wanted to eat the chocolate. I would freeze chocolate milk and try to pass it off as ice cream. I don't recommend any of those. My one shoplifting incident in my life was a Snickers bar. Then my sister caught me eating it and I had to share to buy her silence. Wasn't worth it.
Its not that I think its a realistic goal to never eat sugar again. That's not even a possibility. But maybe I should consider not making any whole batches of cookies when I'm home alone all day. Or making a cake that I'm not going to take somewhere to share with other people. I love sugar too much to give it up entirely. But I also love being skinny. So sacrifices have to be made.
If this means I have to exercise, so be it. Its the price I have to pay to be skinny and not have to move up from my size 6 jeans, which I've been wearing since high school (not the actual same jeans, just the same size).
I have two days of exercise under my belt already. Now if I can keep from hurting my back again like I did yesterday, I should be okay. I just have to exercise (almost) everyday for the rest of my life. Maybe I'll relax a little when I'm pregnant again, since having a flat stomach isn't so much of an issue then.
As an added bonus, Alana loves to do yoga, and if you've ever seen a 3 year old do yoga then you know its almost the cutest thing you'll ever see in the world.